Sometimes the hardest thing for us to accept is when the Master says “no.” It makes no difference if we’re asking for a promotion, a new home or sometimes even a relationship, hearing Him say no is like taking a punch to the chest-it knocks the wind out of you.
First, we’re stunned; but then we become angry, despondent and sometimes, unruly and rebellious. Not because we don’t love Him or because we desire to be master of our own domain. No, it’s because that “no” cuts deeply and forces us to be honest about whose report, whose instruction, we’ll follow.
For the last year, I’ve been on a quest to align myself with the fullness of His glory in my life-to live out this thing we call the love of the Lord. It seemed all of heaven was open before me and whatever I asked was given to me-be it for myself or someone else, His answer was yes and amen. Until I asked Him: may I have this?
It wasn’t like I was asking for something that was out of the ordinary. God had placed this opportunity within my grasp. I frequently consulted Him and every step along the way I got a resounding yes. This was the next logical step in the course of things. Still, the Lord said “no.”
I was devastated. I didn’t understand His reasoning. I only understood my anguish.
Looking back, I see that His “no” kept me from making one of the worst decisions I could have made in my personal life. I understood His “no” didn’t mean I’d never have it. It meant that if I allowed Him to perfect and tailor it, and me, to His specifications, He’d gladly bless me. See, He didn’t want me to have just anything that came along. He wanted me to have a custom-designed original that’s intended solely for me.
Now, I don’t know about you but buying a suit is nice; but a one-of-a-kind designer original is much better!
Does it still hurt? Every day-sometimes to the point of tears. But I’m living out this thing called faith which the essence of things hoped for and the evidence of things unseen. And I’ve decided that no matter the cost or the pain, I want God’s BEST, not just what’s good. So, I’m waiting, expectantly, on Him. Will you?
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